This is probably the last thing some of you thought you would hear me say, but it’s true nonetheless! It’s because of my own recent experience and relationship. It’s hard for me to really believe it too and that the relationship I’m in is heading in this direction. I apologize that this is the first for many of my friends to hear of this…so let me start at the beginning.
You see, throughout my life, I secretly always dreamt of finding that one best friend and companion that would be there through it all. Yes, I’ve had many guy friends but none ever seemed to go very deep like I desired. And yes, even when I did have sexual flings with some guys, it never really satisfied me or lasted. My conclusion from all this heartache, rejection, and pain was that I must not be worth that much to any person-to be sought after, deeply enjoyed, or known intimately. So I gave up looking or trying.
Well all that began to change when I fell in love with this man. At first, I didn’t really believe him nor think his love was real. I looked for any opportunity for him to leave and give up. I even quit talking to him all together for a few years, but that didn’t stop him. He just waited for me because he really did love me. I think things between us really began to get serious while I lived in Kansas City. We spent many late nights talking, laughing, enjoying music together, etc.
Then I began to recognize where this was going…marriage. But I knew that many wouldn’t get it or understand the implications of this if I chose to go through with this. So I had to take time to really think about it. Some might think I’ve gone off the deep end or even hate me for my stance since I know it’s not popular. But my love and our love was just too strong to deny or let anyone say anything different to me. I know it’s right.
So here I am and more and more I catch myself thinking about the ceremony. I want to be ready and prepared for it. Because the closer I get to that day, the more I believe in his love for me, the commitment, the joy, and the intimacy we will share forever together. This I know is what I’ve always been searching for and will finally have. When I think about the love we have, I find that less and less am I looking for other men to fulfill that need in me. Because I’m now committed to only ONE man and his name is JESUS!
Revelation 19:7- “Let us rejoice and be glad and give him the glory for the marriage of the Lamb has come and his Bride has made herself ready.”
Come Lord Jesus Come!